Tonight is the eve of T’s first birthday. This year has flown by, I can hardly believe our little boy is 1 already. Tonight as I cuddled him and kissed his toes at bedtime I was remembering the events of one year ago. I didn’t even know this gorgeous little man; he was still a mystery to us. I would talk to my bump, wondering aloud who it was going to turn out to be. Little did I know it would be a cheeky, independent, funny, absolutely gorgeous little boy.
You can read books, articles, talk to people, attend all the appointments and classes, buy baby equipment, pack hospital bags, ready your house, cook huge quantities of freezer meals, but you are never really prepared to become a parent. I had no idea exactly what being a parent would be like. I thought I knew, but the reality is so different. It is totally consuming, you don’t ‘switch off’ like you do when you come home from work in the evening. It’s 24/7, even when you’re away from them. You discover what it’s like to REALLY love someone. As much as I love my husband, and I can’t imagine life without him, my child is part of me, and I love him more deeply than anyone. You find joy and pride in such simple things, like him getting a spoon into his mouth by himself, or peeing in the potty. You see life through the eyes of someone who is discovering everything for the first time. Becoming a parent is a life-changing experience. Children are such precious gifts, and their childhood is so fleeting. In 5 hours, it will be 1 year since things kicked off and I knew I was finally on my way to meeting my baby. This year has been incredible. Tough, challenging, but amazing and so rewarding. I’m looking forward to seeing what the next year has in store, and enjoying my family.